Renata Carmen Writes

Fresh out the current "Black Book" - which actually has a pink/gold plaid pattern on the cover hehe - I present this piece to you, just written yesterday :) Hope you enjoy! “ Insatiable” Your words still burn like poison in my ears How do I rid myself of your ill intent? Hell bent on destruction Misery loves broken down company Fuck 'em Fuck you and all the rest of the Haters trying to put me down at my best You are like fire I won't get too near you again out of concern you'll burn Consume a hunger that never ends You don't see so long as you only Take, and never Give You will remain Insatiable for as long as you live... R.C.H. Thanks so much for reading!!! Poetry and free writing are such great ways for me to process some of the heavier things in life and get stuff off my chest :) Don't let the Haters get you down. Keep on keepin' on with yo' bad self <3 <3 <3 *Love & Light* Renata Carmen

This post I would like to highlight a personal hero of mine - Neil Young! <3  I've been listening to this dude since the womb (literally) and got to see him perform for the first time recently in Essex for the launch of his Monsanto Years tour.  It was a life changing experience that still brings tears to my eyes when I recall it, but I'll be writing more in detail about that concert later, along with Mr. Young's current fight to aid Vermont as it undergoes a major lawsuit from the shady, scary powerful big corporate alliance known as the " Grocery Manufacturer's Association " - Mansanto and Starbucks being the primary companies within this group currently under his attack.  First, I want to focus on Neil Young as a person - what makes him tick; who/what made him the powerful, loving soul that he his today; how his creative process works. Right before going to see him play up by Lake Champlain, I heard an enlightening interview he did with Howard Stern a...

A fun one I started a while back and finally finished today. I guess you could say I'm in the mood because I'm well enough to go downstairs tomorrow and start restoring the Celica Supra again ;) Yay! Enjoy the Gearhead Poetry! Oh, you rev my engine wear out my starter when I can't take any more you drive me harder thru terrains I never knew you got my alignment all askew runnin' till we see red and blue lights only you know how to move me just right baby let's hit the canyons tonight Thanks for reading! *Love & Light* Renata Carmen "Kaizen" aka "Kiki", our gorgeous 1982 Toyota Celica Supra P-Type 5 Speed <3

I will be picking back up with my "Staying Positive While Living with Chronic Illness" series shortly. Of which I've needed to heed my own advice over the last week, as it has been fraught with some personal challenges. So, here's a quick poem I wrote about it :) hide away hide away from this haze  of sadness and pain that claims this body, this house  hasn't been a home too much insanity condoned  for even a mouse to feel comfortable staying here in this house this home got to get the fuck out  before they own our souls, thoughts, habits gotta get the fuck out see opportunity, grab it like a life preserver and never let go keep pushing further until we're so far from this house this broken home that it's nothing but a feeble memory lost and alone like I feel now in this room while insanity persues those just outside the door let us escape this sickness  and be free from it evermore evermore I love you  my love I know the two of us can rise above this muc...

I have been deep in the grip of a flare-up in inflammation, which has put my Health Tips for the Holidays Series on hold. I will be getting back into that shortly. In the meantime, I wanted to post something to keep this blog alive and kicking, but I'm in a ton of pain and have the worst brain fog and fatigue so it makes writing very difficult. Thus, this will be short, and probably full of silly technical errors. Please forgive any that do appear. In the going on 3 years now that I have been chronically ill, I have done a ton of research related to the matter. Some of my favorite sources are forums, where one can read the experiences of other patients. Not only do these stories provide unique and invaluable medical insights, and help me maneuver the complex health system more efficiently, they also validate my feelings. To know one is not alone when you feel desperately so is like giving water to someone wasting away in the desert. It could save a life. That is probably the most ...