Renata Carmen Writes

There is no way for me to properly explain the loneliness and isolation that comes with being chronically ill and homebound as a result. Perhaps I’ve been feeling extra bummed out lately because of the Elimination Diet I have been working on for the last 13 days (not that anyone’s counting!). I have wanted to write about it, along with my discoveries about the Gut and Vitamin D and all these amazing things I have been experimenting with to manage my illness, plus I have a ton of old writing and poetry to go thru and post, but I have been so bogged down. Just so exhausted and “blah”, not having the energy to do anything but sleep and wallow. I'm just so freakin' sick and tired of being sick and tired!! It's making me feel like this: The main reason why I’m homebound is due to a severe UV sensitivity, so you would think with the days finally getting shorter and cooler my mood would be perking up. Soon it will be snowy and cold and I will no longer be filled with constant pang

This heat wave has had me in a pretty bad Flare, so I haven't gotten as much writing done as I've wanted, but I'm excited to have a brand new piece of poetry to post. It's been a while since I've written any poetry. Hope you enjoy! i am a great light i will rise to this fight i’ll never back down so long as i have my mouth i’ll bite on the jugular of entropy til it turns red, then white (naysayers are no friend to me) i am more than these walls and long paced halls greater than the sum of my weaknesses & flaws i’ll rise above my own desolation & find inspiration thru the cultivation of a much needed cause because i am stronger than my disease weakened hands, hips, knees skin & hair rebelling, organs melting a mind that’s failing even if i say “please” begging all the deities for mercy do you think they heard me? the trees whisper prayers like a clergy they urge me onward, remind me i’m not alone in Mother Nature i always have a home i ask the Muse for gu