Renata Carmen Writes

Some very exciting things have been happening here in Renata Land!  First off, a huge shout-out, and massive thanks to The Speed Girls  for featuring me on their website! It's a beautiful feature, and I am incredibly honored to be considered "The Real Deal" next to all those other badass women they have on there! http://www.thespeedgirls.com/renata-carmen.html Second, I have a new, fancy, official website! So, I will no longer be posting to this blog. I will be keeping this site up until I have archived all the old material on here, but from now on, go to  http://www.renatacarmen.com/  to check out future blog posts, and keep up with my myriad of projects and misadventures! Thank you, faithful readers, for your continued support! It means the world to me and I'm just so excited for things to come :) :) :) *Love & Light* Renata Carmen

I awoke to the sounds of my father yelling. Groggy, confused, hungover, and bleary eyed, I glared over at the alarm clock to see what time it was. What the fuck? It wasn't even 10 am – then still considered a “quiet” part of the day, in a house full of night owls and partying teens at various stages in life. As the oldest of the three girls, I was really the primary partier in the household at the time, but everyone except my Mom had a tendency to sleep late unless work, school, or some other responsibility deemed otherwise. Little did my family suspect that we would all wind up living in this house together again several years down the line - this time as adults recovering from the crashing economy in 2007, all but myself married, and my two sisters both pregnant. Three couples and one stubbornly single person sharing a small house, it was crazy and awful and marvelous all at the same time. Funny how life works. None of us would have willingly chosen that lifestyle. But, when the

Fresh out the current "Black Book" - which actually has a pink/gold plaid pattern on the cover hehe - I present this piece to you, just written yesterday :) Hope you enjoy! “ Insatiable” Your words still burn like poison in my ears How do I rid myself of your ill intent? Hell bent on destruction Misery loves broken down company Fuck 'em Fuck you and all the rest of the Haters trying to put me down at my best You are like fire I won't get too near you again out of concern you'll burn Consume a hunger that never ends You don't see so long as you only Take, and never Give You will remain Insatiable for as long as you live... R.C.H. Thanks so much for reading!!! Poetry and free writing are such great ways for me to process some of the heavier things in life and get stuff off my chest :) Don't let the Haters get you down. Keep on keepin' on with yo' bad self <3 <3 <3 *Love & Light* Renata Carmen