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"Spoonie Rock" - Poetry

Breaking the poetry back out. This is a recent one, just wrote it last week. For my fellow "Spoonies", "Chronic Badasses", or anyone on the struggle...Keep up, stay strong! We all have moments of weakness in our battles - this was one of mine that I managed to turn around in the end. 
For me, freewriting is one of the best forms of therapy.
Hope you enjoy! 

Please tell me that I'm strong enough for this
When you look at me do you see my pain or strength?
I'm trying to bend like a willow in the wind
but I feel I might crack
I fear I may break
If I did a good thing then why 
Why do I 
why do I feel so sad?
Why do I feel so bad? 
why do I cry? 
Why am I so beat down
it's just a hurricane blowing everything around
Flipping my world upside-down
Heavy is the head that wears the crown
These thorns in my flesh are spread all around
Heart and Mind pound
Feeling heavier than gravity
Wanna crawl into a deep, underground cavity
and rest 
Say I did my best
as I breathe my last into the Earth Mother's sweet breast
But that would be a lie
Surely, I'd be sent back to finish what I started
To guide and soothe the lost and broken hearted
A job only I can do in the way that I do it
Now, if only I can be strong enough to see through it
Please
Let the tears stop
Let the pain subside
Give me the strength
to get up and ride
On to better places 
Friendlier faces
filled with the presence of God's graces
Time erases all pain
I know it's hard to think sunshine when you're lost in the rain
But you have everything to gain 
if you so choose
Blessings are often disguised as blues
and wise men as simple fools 
So, follow your folly! 
Be free from sadness
May your heart overflow with gladness
Even at your darkest hour 
What's yours is mine, and I give you Power, 
Strength, and Love
May it flow like a river down from above
and sustain you when you need it most
From sister to sister
and coast to coast 
Together
we're far stronger than one ever could be
United we stand
my fellow Spoonies...

*Love & Light*
Renata Carmen 

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