"Walk Tall" - a poem (circa 2001)

Originally written on a scrap of paper coming down off of gawd-knows-what, back when I was getting deep into the SoCal Rave Scene.
A beautiful piece of teenage rebellion against conformity.

let me melt into the carpet

and seep into the floor

scrape me off the ceiling

and make me whole once more

untangle me from these spider webs

i so lazily spun myself

set me daintily on a cloud

so i can float through life with stealth

toy with my hair

feed bittersweet thoughts into my ear

take me far from this place

because im sick of being here

don’t let them transform me

into the fraud they think i should be

i’ll keep rebelling against the system

til i die or lose my sanity

if i can hold myself together

then i’ll stay strong

if i keep my mind open

i can never be too wrong

let me continue to be a shock

as long as i have energy

let me walk tall

while being the individual

known as me

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